. I'm Done .

That's a phrase I say all to often on any given day lately.  As a mom right now in this social media day and age, it seems like we always have to try to one up each other.  I've been really guilty of trying to do this--sometimes I even do it without knowing.  Throw in a little (ok...a lot) of stress and WHAM!  I feel like I can't keep up, and there's no way at ALL I can one up, or even CATCH up to the other "pinterest-perfect" moms.   I try, and I try-get frustrated, break down, try again, and then when it seems like I'll never be good at this job, I defeatedly say....Ugghhh!  I'm DONE!   Most days that just leaves me feeling like an utter failure...like I'll never get it together.  I wallow and pout, and heck-I even throw some good fits - then it's over and I somehow decide to try to be a good mama again.   With all the stress we've been dealing with, and the feeling of being trampled and knocked down constantly -  instead of always feeling like I'm defeated, I want to say I'M DONE again.... not with trying to be a good mama...but I'm SO very done trying to be the "perfect" mom.  I'm over the stress of trying to fit in, and do everything the way everyone else is doing it.  I'm sick of feeling like the way I choose is wrong, or that I'm so much better for doing things another way.  I'm fed up with feeling the need to be fake, or only post the good and happy stuff on Facebook,  just to make myself look like I have things together.  I'm SO DONE missing out on the precious moments with my little man, because I'm too busy getting after him for something pointless another mom has deemed important.  I'm done being the mean mama, the busy mama, the "feels like she needs to be a perfectionist" mama.  I want to be the happy mama, the goofy-tickle-you-till-you-giggle mama, the love exuding mama.  I want this boy to feel the love I have for him in each word I say, and every hug and kiss I give.  I want him to know that his mama has a passion in her to show him every day how absolutely precious he is, and how extremely blessed she is to have him in her life.   I want to show my boy Jesus through my actions and words,  and I want him to strive to meet Him because mama makes Him so much fun.   I want to do better.  Don't get me wrong, I want to one up one crazy mama - myself, but I don't want to ever try to overachieve and bring anyone down.  Life is way too short, and my goofy gus is growing WAY too fast for me to waste my time trying to be  perfect.  Mama's - join me in trying to lift each other up instead of trampling on the efforts of each other.  We are ALL perfect moms for the babes God gave us.  Let's show them how perfect the love is we have for them.